Love v.s. Logic
February: I sat on the edge of the bed wringing my hands. It was cold out but my body felt as if it had run 10 miles. My heart was pounding and I was trying my best to look stoic. My wife was weeping in the bathroom. We had just received her test results back from the doctor. She was going to lose another child. ANOTHER. I wasn't mad at her. I wasn't mad at myself. I wasn't even mad. I was in disbelief. In that moment I came to the terrible realization that we would probably never have kids. March: My birthday is in march. So is spring break. We took a nice weekend trip to St. Louis and had a wonderful time. My wife was still struggling with health issues which worried me. We didn't know what was going on. She was supposed to be o.k. I didn't really understand what was going on. All I knew is that she looked fine and felt fine, but one day I could wake up and she could be dead ...